Monday, October 24, 2011

A NEW BEGINNING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today I embarked on a new journey, leaving behind my area of expertise of Human Resources to claim a position as an Administrative Officer, in a bureau located within my present agency. If you know me than you know making that change was no easy decision; I’ve been through so much these past few months, the hospitalization of my grandmother, the diagnosis of my own anxiety disorder, losing both an aunt and a cousin; going thru the changes and betrayals at work as well as moving out of my apt. I don’t say any of that to garner any sympathy; I say that to simply state “BUT GOD!” I’ve woke up many a mornings wondering if I was going to make it through, everything I was going thru was on my mind and I still had to show up, do my job, deal with the BS, and even attempt to do well in school- all with a smile, even if it was a lie. I realize now that god took me through all that to test my faith, to see if I really was about his business, and with this amazing blessing I received, I believe I passed. I realize that these struggles may be continuous as if you don’t struggle you don’t appreciate the good times; but I hold on to my faith. Hold on to my peace, and realize that even in my moments of temporary distress, I have God to pick me up and carry me when I no longer have the strength to carry myself. I don’t take on these loads alone, I give them to god, and put my best foot forward.


Now that my sermon is done LOL, let me tell you about my day.  

i was the 1st person to arrive LOL
 My day went AMAZING, no crazy walk-ins, no attitudes/dirty looks & hating from co-workers, no 50 millions emails, no phone call after phone call. I LOVED IT!!!! I'm in a great location, I’ve worked in the area before, I know my team already from previous experiences and I feel so valued, respected, and cared for even on my 1st day. I know that this may not be as perfect as it seems right now, but I’m happy to see this much so far. I realize that my life is changing, and while I may feel fearful at times, I’m very happy that God’s hand is really gripping me, taking me out of my comfort zones and really working in my life. I don’t want to be who I used to be, I wanna be whomever he wants me to be so that I may live right in his eyes and be able to give him the glory.


view outside my window



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