"Y do we hold on to the stuff/ppl/attachments/relation
Someone i know posted that as a status today and it's been stuck with me ever since, why do i as a person hold on to the things not good for me? that god might very well be attempting to tear me from?
it's rather easy for me to let go of toxic friends, attempt to let go of an unfullfilling job or attempt to move away from an unsafe neighboorhood. but somethings, esp. in love- i hold on until either one of two things happen: i get hurt, or i hurt that person. i remember praying some nights to God, asking him why did i fall in love with this man? he's not ready for commitment, he's not this, he's not that- and then when things were going right, i would at times thank god, for bringing him into my life.....weird? isn't it? the same thing i saw as a problem, i saw as a blessing. not saying that there's necessarily something wrong with that, but no one should have to live like that- at least i don't, i realize trails and tribulations in a relationship come with the territory but when you have to question the almighty why? either your not ready, the other person isn't ready, or maybe this just isn't the relationship/right person for you.
it ultimately fell apart- at the time i didn't see the reasons why, but as time passes and i still interact with this person- it's proven why- i see my wrongs- i see their wrongs- i see the things that i did that lead to its demise.
the thing that i must do now- is learn from it, grow from it, and seek to remove myself from up under the crumbles and rumbles of what the relationship used to be- stand on top of it a strong, redefined, confident woman whose not scared of loving again, whose not going to use that experience to judge all men like that, and whose not going to allow the toxic things i removed out of my life to fall back in.
with all this said- it helps explain the picture above. Let GO and Let GOD- happens to be one of my favorite quotations, and finding this picture- helped me understand things alot more clearer.
there's no use in complaining about things/people/relationships/situations etc. in your life that you have control over but choose to continue to keep in your life that causes you pain- what does complaining do besides cause stress/badhealth/badatttitudes? let whatever's bad GO- easier said than done- but you never know the outcome until you try.
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